Its been one of those weeks where this topic has been hitting me in many ways. It started off in a small group conversation that boiled down to the fact that one of the area’s I have struggles with in allowing God full control is that of my self esteem and natural responses to the situations I’m in. Then it went from this conversation to a discussion with a mentor about it, to a sermon, and then talking with a good buddy.
Self esteem and my Identity were things that I was really conscious of during High School, but it is something that I have thought of less and less as an adult. We all know that during High School years the battle is to fit in, to be accepted, to be “Cool”. I know that I struggled greatly with this during my High School years and the years to follow. Its something that for the most part I don’t think of day to day anymore. However I have been reminded that this battle of my self esteem/identity makes up a large part of who I am. It affects greatly how I relate to others, handle situations, and various other areas of life that I struggle with. I know that it affects everyone differently, but we must remember that no matter how put together we appear, everyone has an issue of their self esteem and identity.
I was surprised when one person in the group discussion said they were surprised that I struggled with this. They thought that I was more of the type that would say “If you don’t like me thats your problem, get lost”. It just reminded me that we come off to others differently than we do to ourselves. It was a good reminder as it also prompted me to remind myself and others that we all have hurts and need to be accepted.
God hit me on the head with this issue and what I need to do to continue to work on it this Sunday. Jeff our Senior pastor preached from Ephesians 1:3-14. Jeff preaches alot of great sermons, but this one in particular hit me on the head. He spoke directly to the fact that we need to connect our Identity to our relationship with God and nothing else. He used three images found in this passage. They are that of being Adopted by God (vs. 5), Redemption (vs. 7), and Sealing (vs. 13). It was powerful to be reminded that I am adopted by God, that it is His pleasure to have me as His son. Also that God was willing to buy me at a price, the price of his Son’s blood. Just a great reminder that we are valuable. And that we are sealed, like in the early days and times of Ephesus were things were sealed with a crest or emblem marking the ownership of the item. We are marked as Children of God, and we are HIS>
Jeff finished the sermon with a great phrase:
“He adopted me, He bought me, I’m His!”
Remember that today and everyday. Write it on your arm, your heart, your mind, your desk, your dashboard. Remeber that you are a Child of God, you matter to Him.
Seek Him in every situation and know when the Devil hits you over the head that you can fight back and know that you are a child of God and are deeply loved. Don’t fall for his lies!